the 'come here and feel like crap' thread!

[the trickster]

so does being a girl make you guys feel crapola? i dunno, lately i've just been feeling so down about things, like where i work is dominated by guys and we all get along and stuff..but i guess i still feel on the outer cause im a gal and stuff. and my "romantic" relationships arent that at all...95% of them have been guys being nice to me just to get some, and stupid me falls for it everytime :( sometimes i feel like im nothing more than just something to have sex with, u know?! it sucks! ha i know there are nice boys and stuff out there, but im kinda just over the whole kit and kaboodle right now.

so in conclusion, everyone who feels bad and depressed come join me and all u happy people can leave me alone to wallow! :( !

p.s. an additional question (and part seinfeld reference) i want more hand in a relationship - i wanna call the shots, just once! how the hell can u make this happen!

[rogaine]

i can't tell you how many times i'll be at work and i'll have customers hear something from me, ask to talk to "that guy over there" (a male coworker) and hear the same thing but not believe it until they hear it come out of his mouth.

i guess that's not what you were talking about really but i feel your pain. i also fall in love sooo fast that it's not always a good thing.

[Jackal]

I feel like I'm only as valuable as my beauty sometimes, and like I've used it my whole life and now that's disappearing, I'm nothing special anymore.

[rogaine]

i often wonder if i wasn't pretty if people would like me as much. not that i'm amazingly gorgeous. but i wonder if my personality would be "enough" like it is now if i wasn't attractive to others!

[Needs Wasabi]

I hate relationshits.

Last guy I was with meant everything to me and he fucked around behind my back with his ex. :cry:

I HATE LIFE. I feel like crap all the time. I'm not 80 pounds and a tee total slut so I cannot find a decent guy. :no:

[Leela]

UGGGHHHHH I hate men! There's this guy that I've been pining (pineing?) over for a few months now and it all went to shit. I gave it up too easily now he won't even fucking talk to me.

And I don't know why I'm not over it! He stopped talking to me the Wednesday before thanksgiving and ever since then I keep obsessively checking my away message to see if by some miracle he's IMed me. But no, he doesn't. BUT I STILL LOOK :cry:

Ugh, ugh.

[Needs Wasabi]

I feel even worse now. For a stupid reason. Blah.

There's this friend I've had a crush on since I met him four years ago. When we first met he was dating a really slutty girl who was in my art class. So, to hang around with him more I starting dating a friend of his. Then, after he broke up with said girl and I was done with his asshole of a friend. Rumors starting flying that him and my best friend had done something with eachother in a closet (sick..eh?) Well, tonight I ran into him at the local chinese place. He was there with another girl we hung around with in high school named Jamie. Jamie and him are now dating...GODDAMMIT! Will I ever have the balls to ask him out when he's not dating or fooling around with somebody else. :cry:

FUCK SHIT DAMN. I'm out!

P.S. This guy looks like Jack White. But, he's still cute in my book.

[cigar store indian]

My boyfriend hits me and makes me take heroin drugs.
:cry:

[bags]

1. I had a stomach bug last week
2. I now have a cold
3. My girlfriend of 8 months wants "space" or "time" or something
4. Apparently, I have done nothing wrong
5. I am somewhat clingy, but I care.
6. I have spent $500+ on xmas and birthday gifts :/
7. She wont talk about it, EVAR. "I dont want to talk about this right now"
8. Yes this is the girl board, so what :P

[Needs Wasabi]

I'm sorry. :(

[bags]

No need to be sorry, I guess I will have to wait (and yes I suck at this, I already called her etc, bad move)

[Needs Wasabi]

I hope everything works out for you two. :)

[cigar store indian]

Aww, poor guy. :cry:
Bitches aint shit.

[lisa]

im a girl and i feel like crap a lot. mostly because i feel too ugly. i know its stupid but its not something i can get over. i want to change sooo many things physically before i feel good enough to go out there and meet people and live my life. so i have this list of things i need to do like lose 15 lbs and change my hair and join the gym and save up for vineers and etc etc to fit the way im told im supposed to look in order for anyone to want me and it wears me out cause ill never have enough money or time to put into this. i let it hold me back everyday. i dont talk to people cause i dont want them to look at me. i feel like i can be myself on the internet cause no one is judging me on the way i look. and everytime i fix one thing, like lose some weight, i just find another thing i have to fix before im ready to talk to people and stop being afraid of what they think. i wish i could just not care.
i was doing okay for a while but an older woman was staring at me a week ago with this utter look of disgust on her face, like i was the ugliest thing shed ever seen, and now i feel like that hideous 12 yr old again. it sucks. it doesnt matter how many guys hit on me or ask me out or tell me im cute it all just seems like a ploy to get what they want be it physical or emotional, its never what they really think.

[Needs Wasabi]

I feel the same way Lisa.




I'm so lame I can't even find a boyfriend on Blamonet. DX

that's my favorite saying now.

[Kelly Kapowski]

I'm not 80 pounds and a tee total slut so I cannot find a decent guy. :no:
wow that's, like, kind of an absurd thing to say! i'm a prude and no where near 80lbs and have a ridiculously nice boyfriend! Bags, remember irish john : ( Anyway, you certainly shouldn't settle for anyone, but you shouldn't assume that girls who have nice b/fs have them b/c they are cheerleader sluts!

Even when i feel shitty about myself, i usually feel pretty empowered. I love sticking it to the man. Today, though, I did another marathon shopping day and felt a little shitty :no: The lights in the dressing room at h&m were horrifying and highlighted every piece of fat and thigh and i wanted to off myself. Actually, not really, but it was pretty lame.

I bought a pair of orange high tops though! and some other cool stuff, because buying makes me feel better inside D:

[Cheryl K]

I'm so lame I can't even find a boyfriend on Blamonet.

It's not all it's cracked up to be. Not that I regret getting involved with Alex cause I love him to death but long distance relationships SUCK.

I feel like crap a lot but I don't think it's because of my gender. Or maybe it does play a part, I dunno. I think I'm just surrounded by a lot of people who don't give a fuck about me so they treat me like shit every now and again.

[Needs Wasabi]

wow that's, like, kind of an absurd thing to say! i'm a prude and no where near 80lbs and have a ridiculously nice boyfriend! Bags, remember irish john : ( Anyway, you certainly shouldn't settle for anyone, but you shouldn't assume that girls who have nice b/fs have them b/c they are cheerleader sluts!

Even when i feel shitty about myself, i usually feel pretty empowered. I love sticking it to the man. Today, though, I did another marathon shopping day and felt a little shitty :no: The lights in the dressing room at h&m were horrifying and highlighted every piece of fat and thigh and i wanted to off myself. Actually, not really, but it was pretty lame.

I bought a pair of orange high tops though! and some other cool stuff, because buying makes me feel better inside D:

I didn't say all guys went for gals like that Bailey. Please don't think that. :D

The majority of the men where I live do though...and I'm having a hell of a time getting out of this shithole at the moment.

[Kelly Kapowski]

okay then. I only said something because it wasn't the first time i've seen you say that!

[Static Split Screen]

long distance relationships SUCK.

(cheryl are you still with alex? or not? I thought you were engaged at some point? I'm so out of the loop)

They suck indeed, but my relationship with Craig's totally worth it.

I also feel ugly and fat ALL the time and I hate it. And deep down I know I shouldn't and that I'm thin and reasonably pretty but I don't know, I just can't. I feel really awkward with the weight I've gained. And I hate how it seems all girls to some extent have a fucked up relationship with food and it irks me. Enjoy the damn ice cream! </hypocrite to the max>

[Cheryl K]

(cheryl are you still with alex? or not? I thought you were engaged at some point? I'm so out of the loop)

We broke up but we're still really good friends and talk every night on the phone for a couple of hours. It's basically what we had going anyways while I'm at school, and we plan on seeing each other this summer, but now we don't have any of the pressures that are typically involved with being in a relationship.

[ramblingrose]

ENOUGH!
I've wasted god knows how many brain cells and hours and hours worrying about how I look, "oh I'm such a fat" etc, and I really think it's time we all said "ENOUGH". I know it's difficult, but it's such a waste of energy and as long as we can all climb stairs and fit through the doorway of the outsize shop WHO CARES REALLY LIKE JUDGE JUDY SAY "BEAUTY FADES DUMB IS FOREVER". That doesn't really illustrate my point too well, but still. It puts it into some sort of perspective when someone tall and slender like Laura feels bad about herself cos she thinks she's fat. (Sorry to use you as an example! it's just you have a model-type physique) We're totally brainwashed, and we're going to have to start resisting, otherwise we might as well all get sterilised now as our daughters are going to be unable to think about anything other than their non-existant flaws. And the way things are going, our sons as well, I do not approve in the slightest of the increasing pressure on men to conform to some bullshit ideal. It's easier said than done and I know that better than most, but I think we need to make a concerted effort to NOT talk about our "fat" or "ugly" or whatever, and instead talk about our "clever" and our "nice". Obviously we're going to still have our own insecurities because we've been fed this crap so hard and for so long that we all think we're massively defective, and I'm not advocating that we all grow moustaches and only wear sacks, but you can have fun being pretty without letting your looks define your worth as a human being. Ladies (and Gents!) of Blamo, let the revolution start here!
Che McGuevara (Ms)
ps don't get me started on the whole madonna/whore thing.

[ramblingrose]

pps I think Aaron Bags has illustrated that having a crappy time in affairs of the heart is not gender-specific. Bless.

[ramblingrose]

ppps GO BAILEY, you can lead the charge of ladies who know they are smokin' hot.

[Jackal]

What you look like doesn't matter to the people that truly like you.

You know I'm not what any modeling agency wants, but that doesn't bother me. Confidence and accepting yourself, makes you sexier and more attractive to men, than a prettier girl that is frantic about her looks.

p.s. I'm smoking hot for my age.

[ramblingrose]

^ that's exactly what I had in mind! Allison for Presidente

[ramblingrose]

gawd I can't rep you :(

[Kelly Kapowski]

i lub u guys ;( and fucking YES to the judge judy quote! Her daughter lives in my tiny town, and last time irish john was here i drove to her house and we parked outside it : DDDDDDDDDDDDDD


whenever i feel crap about myself, i can't help but feel how completely stupid it is to allow myself to feel that way. I can't always help it though, but sometimes you just gotta snap out of it as well. Do you guys ever read Bust magazine? That magazine makes me feel so good about myself, i love it!!

[Static Split Screen]

ENOUGH!
...

*applauds*

It's easier said than done a lot of the time though :\

[cousin Milo]

Ow I love u guys (gals)

Iv'e been pining away over the same guy for the last 8 months,
well 7 months really , the last month I have just felt incredibly bitter
and I hate everything, EVERYTHING.

It occured to me that maybe iv'e finally become an adult (i'm 24)
That I am and am forever more just going to spray ice over my sences
whenever something bad happens.

also my best mate of 16 years sent me a txt message last night saying she wants to sleep with me :ok:

I hate life.

I wish I could go live on a deserted island.

[Daysleeper]

I've been feeling kinda shitty this past month, and its mainly due to the gurlz. I knew that I never really understood women, but it has been rammed home these past few weeks.

One of the instances I'm annoyed because I feel that a potentially good friendship (I didn't want anything more) might be wasted. The other instant, I'm finding the person rude.

:(

[cigar store indian]

I agree with saying fuck it to your body image issues!
So much so that i decided to stop eating 5oo calories a day and get some mcdonalds before. (i didn't have any money, so im sitting here starving, but stilll!!!)
Also, I feed Jamz like he was on a deserted island for years. I love some extra fat on menz. sighhhhhhhhhhhh

[Jackal]

Thanks Ciona, you rock!

[Leela]

ENOUGH!
I've wasted god knows how many brain cells and hours and hours worrying about how I look, "oh I'm such a fat" etc, and I really think it's time we all said "ENOUGH". I know it's difficult, but it's such a waste of energy and as long as we can all climb stairs and fit through the doorway of the outsize shop WHO CARES REALLY LIKE JUDGE JUDY SAY "BEAUTY FADES DUMB IS FOREVER". That doesn't really illustrate my point too well, but still. It puts it into some sort of perspective when someone tall and slender like Laura feels bad about herself cos she thinks she's fat. (Sorry to use you as an example! it's just you have a model-type physique) We're totally brainwashed, and we're going to have to start resisting, otherwise we might as well all get sterilised now as our daughters are going to be unable to think about anything other than their non-existant flaws. And the way things are going, our sons as well, I do not approve in the slightest of the increasing pressure on men to conform to some bullshit ideal. It's easier said than done and I know that better than most, but I think we need to make a concerted effort to NOT talk about our "fat" or "ugly" or whatever, and instead talk about our "clever" and our "nice". Obviously we're going to still have our own insecurities because we've been fed this crap so hard and for so long that we all think we're massively defective, and I'm not advocating that we all grow moustaches and only wear sacks, but you can have fun being pretty without letting your looks define your worth as a human being. Ladies (and Gents!) of Blamo, let the revolution start here!
Che McGuevara (Ms)
ps don't get me started on the whole madonna/whore thing.


*applauds* I lurve you, Ciona. You made my day!

[kendra]

I feel like crap sometimes but it's only girl related when the feeling like crap comes from:

x Uterine cramps
x PMS
X High and/or unpredictable blood sugars caused by premenstrual hormones

Rarely do I get all emo about my female lot in life. Yes, we are not going to be taken as seriously. Yes, we get stereotyped as weak, whiny, and sappy. But there's flipsides to all of that, and honestly sometimes it's an advantage. I don't get worked up about that shit, but maybe it's because I'm not applying to be a firefighter and I never want to make partner in a big ole soulless corporation.

[kendra]

Oh and I don't care if people think I'm ugly because if my physical beauty or lack thereof is going to effect the relationship we have, then the relationship isn't all that important to me anyway.

[the trickster]

haha yeah i feel all emo too! alot of my friends constantly go on about how fat they are, and i think its all a way of fishing for compliments. the thing that bugs me is all the guys i know completely drool over all these pictures of celebrities..all photoshoped of course, and apply the same principles to people in everyday life. how the hell can we compete with airbrushed images!!? even when a girl is shit hot, they find ways to criticize her and call her a skank. seriously, whats a gal to do?!

[lisa]

haha yeah i feel all emo too! alot of my friends constantly go on about how fat they are, and i think its all a way of fishing for compliments. the thing that bugs me is all the guys i know completely drool over all these pictures of celebrities..all photoshoped of course, and apply the same principles to people in everyday life. how the hell can we compete with airbrushed images!!? even when a girl is shit hot, they find ways to criticize her and call her a skank. seriously, whats a gal to do?!
not sure if this video has been posted on this board yet but its a great example of that:

http://video.google.ca/videoplay?docid=-6915842737034217262&q=dove+real+beauty

[Static Split Screen]

It's true. We're expected to perform to an unattainable ideal, and hate ourselves for falling short, when there's not much we can do about it.

[rogaine]

that movie is gross.
i wonder what models think when they see photoshopped pictures of themselves? that would be so bizarre!

[Jackal]

What??? No, I've never been expected to look like any girl in a magazine, I've never been told to loose weight, or to look better, no one has ever given me grief because I'm short. Only idiots believe women are expected to actually look like that.

What girl puts up with shit like that? If a man, is telling you any of that shit, drop his ass! They can fuck themselves, while you are out looking for a gentleman.

Women drool over male celebrities, but we don't expect our men to look like them. Why do some women feel like men expect them to look perfect?

Women shouldn't be disturbed that some men hate their bodies. I certainly hate some men's bodies. Men aren't that shallow, they just have different tastes.

[Needs Wasabi]

It just eats at my nerves because the last guy I was with told me I was 'chubby' and needed to go on a diet. I swear, I cried so hard about that. :(

I should get over that, but it's really hard to.

[Cheryl K]

I've never been told I need to lose weight, but I have been told I need to wear more eyeshadow. :wtf:

EDIT: I get called fat a lot, but never by friends or significant others.

[Kelly Kapowski]

EDIT: I get called fat a lot, but never by friends or significant others.
just out of the blue?? what is wrong with people!

i mean, i've had that happen to me a couple times when i was a young kid by a couple other kids, but it's hard to believe people still say the same shit at 22 years old, you know? god, dont get me started.

[ramblingrose]

Hurrah for us! I used to get called fat/ugly/whatever all the time, literally all the time at school, and even now when I see a group of kids I turn my walkman up or cross the street in case they shout abuse at me (I mean ipod, I'm so 90s "lol"). I think that's why I find it difficult to stop caring about all that rubbish. It was always boys who called me those kinds of names as well, even now I'm always surprised that men don't seem to find me that hideous. Strangely when I went to sixth form college I was one of the "popular" girls despite not looking any different than I did on the last day of school, an ex boyfriend theorised that they called me out for such things because they were intimidated by the things I said and the fact I didn't sit there giggling and brushing my hair. Who knows? The thing is, even if you have been bothered by the ugly stick who cares? JUDGE JUDY 4EVA (not that I'm calling her a munter). Who do you admire more? Oprah or Jessica Alba, for example? We need to collectively get over it, perhaps we should start some lame-o cheerleading-type thread where we all post "affirmations" and stuff.

[cigar store indian]

:cry: !!!! Back to the topic for a moment! I am almost legally blind, but i can't afford an eye doctor and new glasses. Anyone know how much that shit costs? If its a lot I'll have to wait till i go to arizona in march (?) and go to my dads friend for freeeeeeee.
Its so frustrating/scary. I'm in great danger of killing someone on the road!

[milpool]

uuuugh i wanna be one of those girls whos all "yeah so i got some extra meats whatev i'm hot!" but it is so so hard. especially when you work with boys who still have that junior high mentality.. thinkin girls are fat if they're 5 pounds over weight. plus i work with about 3 other people and they weight themselves EVERY FUCKING DAY and compare and shit and i'm like..dude, seriously. it makes me feel like such a tub but on the other hand they look like a bunch of stupid knob holes.

and HAT, i get that shit at work so bad too. i work in a crumby warehouse and couriers and shit always come in and ask if *I* can sign for stuff or sometimes they will actually walk right by me and get a guy to sign for something. apparently girls arent even smart enough to jot down their signature..?

[Needs Wasabi]

'knob holes' is the greatest insult ever. You get a prize. Some rep.

[Intern Kate]

plus i work with about 3 other people and they weight themselves EVERY FUCKING DAY and compare and shit and i'm like..dude, seriously.

shit! i laughed really hard at that. that's ridiculous.

[bags]

So I am single again...

Did I mention I work with her, in the same team?

[the trickster]

ooh. thats bad. ive done that before. the guy tried to mow me over with a big steel cage. then he asked to get a transfer to kingaroy (sticksville) cause everyone hated him and loved me :D go me!

and dumpsville sucks. i practically live there... but things aren't so bad. we have some nice clubs to party at...and a couple of good places to eat...i'll even make u vice president if it makes u feel better?

[bags]

I am OK but it is pretty fucking depressing. 8 months, for what? Almost no fights then BAM, GONE. I think I will take back the $350 ring I have.

Now I just need to work out how to talk to girls again :/

I just want the simple life...

[the trickster]

wow, without trying to pry or anything, but did she say why?

[bags]

She didnt really say but I can guess at

1. She doesnt like guys being "clingy" but I dont think I am that bad (surely 8 months proves I am not)
2. She wants to be single? She cant deal with committment even if she is happy
3. The working together thing has got to her, yeah not a smart move but we both knew this, she is OK at her job, I helped her write the EOI though
4. "Too different" although I doubt this
5. Sick of me suggesting little improvements? Like more sleep, stress less, be positive
6. Tectonic plates

:/

[the trickster]

yeah that really sounds like nothing :/

well come move to brisbane and we can live all happily ever after! : D

[cigar store indian]

I don't like that! You sound like a real catch and she sounds nuts. Have drinking parties and then move on and meet someone who deserves you!

[ramblingrose]

Or move on and don't bother with all the stress of "relationships"! get lots of dogs instead.
I feel your pain re. price of glasses, Debbie, I lost mine about two years ago and in the end my mum bought me two new pairs (buy one get one free offer), two days after I got the new ones I found the old ones. But I like the new ones better, so it was good really.

[i]

6. Tectonic plates
:/

:darn: :/

[Daysleeper]

So I am single again...

Did I mention I work with her, in the same team?

Aww, man, that sucks. And it's gotta be even harder if you work with her.

If you were in Hood Town I would take you out for a beer and we could discuss how we don't understand girls.

[Leela]

That sucks, Aaron. I hope things get better soon!

[i]

bags, check your PMs.

[Cheryl K]

just out of the blue?? what is wrong with people!

i mean, i've had that happen to me a couple times when i was a young kid by a couple other kids, but it's hard to believe people still say the same shit at 22 years old, you know? god, dont get me started.

Fat Story #93572903

Last October I was out having dinner with a group of friends. Afterwards, everyone thought it was a good idea to go to a bar but everyone kinda forgot that I was under 21 at the time. And the jerks that they are, they left me out on the street. So I was just hanging out, trying to not look like a tard and a car full of guys stopped at the traffic light, rolled down their window and started asking me directions to some resturant. I said that I didn't know where it was and they said something to the effect of "Wow, you'd think a fat cunt like yourself would know". D: :cry:

[Cheryl K]

:cry: !!!! Back to the topic for a moment! I am almost legally blind, but i can't afford an eye doctor and new glasses. Anyone know how much that shit costs? If its a lot I'll have to wait till i go to arizona in march (?) and go to my dads friend for freeeeeeee.
Its so frustrating/scary. I'm in great danger of killing someone on the road!

Go to Walmart. Seriously. I got my glasses and and an eye exam for only $160.

[Needs Wasabi]

Fat Story #93572903

Last October I was out having dinner with a group of friends. Afterwards, everyone thought it was a good idea to go to a bar but everyone kinda forgot that I was under 21 at the time. And the jerks that they are, they left me out on the street. So I was just hanging out, trying to not look like a tard and a car full of guys stopped at the traffic light, rolled down their window and started asking me directions to some resturant. I said that I didn't know where it was and they said something to the effect of "Wow, you'd think a fat cunt like yourself would know". D: :cry:

:(

Some people are total fuck offs. :grouphug:

I'm sorry that happened to you.

[Kelly Kapowski]

Fat Story #93572903

Last October I was out having dinner with a group of friends. Afterwards, everyone thought it was a good idea to go to a bar but everyone kinda forgot that I was under 21 at the time. And the jerks that they are, they left me out on the street. So I was just hanging out, trying to not look like a tard and a car full of guys stopped at the traffic light, rolled down their window and started asking me directions to some resturant. I said that I didn't know where it was and they said something to the effect of "Wow, you'd think a fat cunt like yourself would know". D: :cry:
that is an absolutely horrible story, but i hope you realize how much these guys must honestly HATE themselves to have said something that low. Like, no self-respecting and intelligent person would ever make such a foul and offensive remark. People are just...horrifying, to be honest. They are just absolute fuckheads with no self-esteem and no guidance.

[Cheryl K]

Thanks you guys, I know there (thankfully) there aren't that many assholes like that out there, but I seem to find them every now and again. :darn:

Latest fat incident though involves one of my former roommates. I still read her blog and a week ago she mentioned me. The past year or so she's used her journal to rant about how obese she is (she's 5'2" and weighs 120 lbs.) which is just disgusting. Anyways, she said:

I wish I had the courage to stop eating during the day. I just can't stand to be around fat people. Everytime I see someone obese I know I'll be like that soon. My last roommie was disgusting, she alwyas ate lunch around me. People who are like that deserve to be like that but I'm just so scared that I'll end up weighing 130 pounds like I did three years ago. :-(

D: D: D: D:

[Needs Wasabi]

Your ex roomie sounds like a total ass. :no:

She had no reason to write that about you.

...and... If a 120 is obese than I must be 'morbidly' obese.

I weigh around 150. :cry: But, I am 5'7.

[Cheryl K]

Your ex roomie sounds like a total ass. :no:

She had no reason to write that about you.

...and... If a 120 is obese than I must be 'morbidly' obese.

I weigh around 150. :cry: But, I am 5'7.

Then, if you're morbidly obese, I'm....ultra morbidly obese. (I'm 5'6" and a half inch and I'm 180). Which is all crap cause weight, the number at least, can be so meaningless. It's not like my arteries will suddenly be clogged if my scale hits 200 or everyone will stop talking to me if I weigh 178.943 lbs.

[Needs Wasabi]

Back a few years ago I was up to 200 because of the medication I was on. I just started to lose it about a year and a half ago or so.

Weight don't mean shit anyways in my opinion. I'd be friends with somebody even if they weighed a thousand pounds. :D

[cigar store indian]

Go to Walmart. Seriously. I got my glasses and and an eye exam for only $160.

I don't know where there is a walmart around here, but that sounds reasonable. My dad told me to go to his jewish friend here, get the exam and then casually mention i'm his daughter after and he swears he won't charge me. I think my dad thinks too highly of his connections though. what if i mention it and he says. .. "oy vey, how nice, that'll be 0383496572450 dollars please." :cry:

Today this woman asked me to help her find something and i squinted and said, sorry i can't see the signs, let me get someone else. :/

[sleepy sinner]

1. I had a stomach bug last week
2. I now have a cold
3. My girlfriend of 8 months wants "space" or "time" or something
4. Apparently, I have done nothing wrong
5. I am somewhat clingy, but I care.
6. I have spent $500+ on xmas and birthday gifts :/
7. She wont talk about it, EVAR. "I dont want to talk about this right now"
8. Yes this is the girl board, so what :P

Aaron hubby, we are twinz in disease :(
I had the evil stomach disease too, EVERYONE has it apparently! I gave it to my sister...muhaha. And I got the cold on top of it too, as everyone around me had a cold and drained the life force and echinacea forte (sp?)out of me with their cloud of GERMS!
I'm sorry about the gf stuff, I'm always here if you want some chats.
Also, from the sounds of it, you are VERY generous with Christmas gifts so take solace in the fact that you are a RAD person.

[sleepy sinner]

I guess I'm lucky in that I don't have that much to sort of moan about, only this week I'm going through one of those short cranky phases where I temporarily resent all my friends for being selfish prats - I think these are coincidental times when everyone rubs me the wrong way by doing crappy things simultaneously. Usually I can deal with the fact that my friends have pretty strong personalities and some can be demanding and stuff but other times I feel like its all about them them them and they never take time to think about what is convenient for me, or appreciate the emotional and other work I do to keep us all going, or they shirk their contributions. It doesn't help that my bf can slip into that kind of mode too at the same time as everyone else before I usually pull him up on it.

My relationship is feeling a little strange at the moment too. I feel really disconnected and he's annoying me at the moment and I'm hoping its just because we're both nervous before going away together, as it will be pretty intense spending that much time together. We also can't do anything as we're saving money so are both bored out of our brains and have nothing fun to do together at the moment. But yeah he can get pretty lazy and self-absorbed sometimes, which worries me right before going away with him. Hopefully it won't lead to a crisis or fight mid-trip...sigh.

[wasp in a jar]

i still have post-festival pizza belly from gorging myself on pizza hut for three days.

i have a horrible hangover.

i think i am turning into bridget jones.

[Static Split Screen]

What??? No, I've never been expected to look like any girl in a magazine, I've never been told to loose weight, or to look better, no one has ever given me grief because I'm short. Only idiots believe women are expected to actually look like that.

What girl puts up with shit like that? If a man, is telling you any of that shit, drop his ass! They can fuck themselves, while you are out looking for a gentleman.

Women drool over male celebrities, but we don't expect our men to look like them. Why do some women feel like men expect them to look perfect?

Women shouldn't be disturbed that some men hate their bodies. I certainly hate some men's bodies. Men aren't that shallow, they just have different tastes.

I mean society and advertising etc. No one's ever told me I had to lose weight.

[Static Split Screen]

In other news I'm trying to gain 5 pounds because I'm so flipping cold here I figure the extra insulation will help.

[cigar store indian]

i think i am turning into bridget jones. :lol: I saw that recently and thought... this movie is about meeeeee. :nerd:



Other than being blind, and not being able to spend xmas with the fam, i'm feeling good. my 70 hour hell week of work is over after tomorrow, then its party time. yay

[Lily]

She didnt really say but I can guess at

1. She doesnt like guys being "clingy" but I dont think I am that bad (surely 8 months proves I am not)
2. She wants to be single? She cant deal with committment even if she is happy
3. The working together thing has got to her, yeah not a smart move but we both knew this, she is OK at her job, I helped her write the EOI though
4. "Too different" although I doubt this
5. Sick of me suggesting little improvements? Like more sleep, stress less, be positive
6. Tectonic plates

:/

1. Yew can cling onto me anytime.... when my husband is at work, that is haha.
2. I call this condition "commitaphobia". Sooner or laters, she will have to deal with this or be miserable. It is true.
3. Working together is not good. But you know that.
4. 2 steps forward, 1 step back, Something something, Opposites attract.
5. People don't ever like to be critiqued. Not that you were actually critiquing her, but some people, like myself, who have lower self esteem etc become quiiiiiite defensive when someone suggests something. My husband suggested I don't answer the telephone (WTF) after 9pm so I can get more "me" time in, instead of playing Dear Abby for my family and friends. I see now why this is a good suggestion, but felt at the time that he was trying to change me, how I like to help my friends and family with stuff.... you know? maybe that.
6. Definitely.

Sorry to hear about your sucky sitch, and hello!

[Jackal]

:lol: I saw that recently and thought... this movie is about meeeeee. :nerd:



Other than being blind, and not being able to spend xmas with the fam, i'm feeling good. my 70 hour hell week of work is over after tomorrow, then its party time. yay


Yeah, but what's her face had to gain weight too play her and weighed in at a huge fucking.........like...135 or whatever. Bridget Jones can sook my panis.

[cigar store indian]

she's short! i'm short and i currently weigh 105 or something. if i gained 30 lbs ide feel pretty big.

[sleepy sinner]

I hated the fact that in the second movie they turned her into an obsessive gagging for marriage. The books have absolutely nothing to do with Bridget actually like DEMANDING marriage or breaking up with Mark over the marriage question. FUCK. GRRRRRR.

[bags]

So what do I do oh wise people?

I have tried to save it once, I guess, is it worth another shot but when? What should I say?

Also, I have decided I need reasons for closure.

PS - I know her parents got into a fight over our relationship... they were like why are you doing this to him yada yada? Weird.

[bags]

Aww, man, that sucks. And it's gotta be even harder if you work with her.

If you were in Hood Town I would take you out for a beer and we could discuss how we don't understand girls.
I would so take you up on that, MATE!

[gangsta puffin]

Latest fat incident though involves one of my former roommates. I still read her blog and a week ago she mentioned me. The past year or so she's used her journal to rant about how obese she is (she's 5'2" and weighs 120 lbs.) which is just disgusting. Anyways, she said:

I wish I had the courage to stop eating during the day. I just can't stand to be around fat people. Everytime I see someone obese I know I'll be like that soon. My last roommie was disgusting, she alwyas ate lunch around me. People who are like that deserve to be like that but I'm just so scared that I'll end up weighing 130 pounds like I did three years ago. :-(

D: D: D: D:

i hope you can see (and it seems like you do) that she has a SERIOUS fucking problem. she found it disgusting that you ate lunch in front of people? that's not normal.

it reminds me of when i worked at nutrisystem, and a girl would call whining that it "doesn't work" and she's not losing any weight... and i open her profile and she's, no shit, like 5'8" 115lbs. of COURSE you're not losing weight, ugh. NS does attempt to screen people like that from even starting the program, but clearly they can just lie to get past it.

and mind you, that's even more than just a thin girl whining that she's fat, she thinks she's so fat that she'll pay $300/month to lose weight. it's insane.

[homer j. simpson]

i sometimes catch myself missing my ex boyfriend, but i think that's just cuz i'm kind of lonely so even that douchebag looks SEMI good to me every once in a while.

PS i really dislike that fucker.

there is ONE boy in san diego who i really really truly like...or liked, i don't even know anymore. he's the coolest most sincere and genuinely NICE boy i have ever met, and he's smart and funny and cute and there are companies that want him to be a pro skater cuz he's just that good but he's busy with college right now, and he travels and reads and listens to soul music. i'm like half in love with him :[ but he does not know. i'm his "homie" D: i do not know how to make this awesome guy who is busy ALL the time notice me. i feel like such a teenybopper right now.

i think more than that the big thing that is bothering me is that all the boys i've met just want to make out or whatever and then leave. i know that's probably normal, but it just makes me feel slightly terrible, like that's all i'm good for or whatever--and then i wonder what all those girls who are in proper relationships have that i don't.

[lisa]

all the boys i've met just want to make out or whatever and then leave. i know that's probably normal, but it just makes me feel slightly terrible, like that's all i'm good for or whatever--and then i wonder what all those girls who are in proper relationships have that i don't.
yeah this is what really gets to me.. when/how do i get to be the person someone wants to stick around to be with?

[homer j. simpson]

and then at the same time i'm like fuck relationships because they can get so shitty and i'd rather be enjoying my youth and whatnot, not worrying about the shit some dumb boy will put me through.

there is no winning!

[kendra]

SOLUTION: do not date dumb boys

ADDITIONALLY: this is easier said than done

[bags]

My heart ACHES.

[Needs Wasabi]

:grouphug:

Love sucks don't it?

[homer j. simpson]

SOLUTION: do not date dumb boys

ADDITIONALLY: this is easier said than done

it is indeed easier said than done, seeing as the GREAT GREAT majority of the boys i've met have been "dumb".

i've pretty much sworn off boys in my year, which works out perfectly cuz i like 24-27 year olds, and they like me too :D

[Needs Wasabi]

I like older guys too!

*high five*

They are a little less stupid than guys our age.

[homer j. simpson]

they are indeed. i have the most scrumptious 27 year old that i am adoring, but i unfortunately enoughhave to restrain myself from going out with him :[

i need to be 5 years older, like, immediately.

[Needs Wasabi]

I have a crush on two men in their 20's.

:cry:

[homer j. simpson]

:O how old are you? i always thought you were in your 20s!

[Needs Wasabi]

19. :D

I'll be 20 on August 2nd of next year. :)

[homer j. simpson]

ohh nice. at least you're over 18!

it's kinda funny to watch the men i flirt with take two giant steps away from me once they find out i'm not legal :D

[sleepy sinner]

yeah this is what really gets to me.. when/how do i get to be the person someone wants to stick around to be with?

Aw guys. There's nothing you don't have. I've pretty much decided that to meet someone who truly clicks with you it is just mainly due to a huge dose of chance/luck that you happen to:
a) meet them/talk to them or whatever
b) click with them in some way
c) discover continually that you are good together/want to be together/they won't treat you like crap.

I think it only happens every so often because it IS such long odds on getting that combination?

[ramblingrose]

Don't go thinking that 27-year-olds are going to be any less dickish than anyone else. Age ain't nothin' but a number innit.

[homer j. simpson]

haha but in my experience they're dickish in less significant ways.

ahh and they're just so much sexier.

[Kelly Kapowski]

Don't go thinking that 27-year-olds are going to be any less dickish than anyone else. Age ain't nothin' but a number innit.
Yeah, that's what i was going to say. And i realize i am only a few years older than you, but maybe when you get a little older you may feel how I feel, which is it's extremely easy for a 27 year old guy to become dramatically un-sexy once he starts fawning over someone who is 17 D; In my experience, anyway, it felt nice in some cases to be found attractive by someone who is significantly older when you are a younger girl, and then once I became older I felt slightly disgusted by it all. Like, I just want to go back in time and tell those jerks to grow up.

[homer j. simpson]

haha yeah i can definitely see that.

nah i don't expect them to magically become decent human beings by the time they get past the age of 25.

oh who cares anyway, i pretty much am swearing off men in general for a while and that will solve all these problems.

[Leela]

word. I'm done with men right now, I'm still reeling from my last crush

[Needs Wasabi]

Gah, I hate being during the Holidays. :(

I was just thinking about how bad it sucks. :cry:

[The Tourist]

what's wrong with being a pervy 27 year old guy? :O
I'm really glad I'm not a teenager anymore, I fucking hated all those years. The lows surely outweighed the highs and the lows are more memorable. I feel like I'm just growing into my skin now, aged 24. :O I definitely feel more comfortable being me and also more comfortable and not really caring what other people think. People have attacked me all my life for me being me, they have a wonderfully horrible knack at making one feel like shit about oneself. So all I do is try not to offend anymore intentionally and then no one can really complain. If they do then they're a sad fucking prude who can go fuck themselves until they die miserably. :D

[bags]

What are some GET OVER IT "remedies", anyone? Remember I work with her :/

[homer j. simpson]

there are always rebound flings...

sorry pal but i only really know the girlie remedies, which, granted, worked miracles for me. sex & the city, ice cream, chocolate, love actually, eternal sunshine, and spending every single minute of extra time with good friends.

[bags]

and spending every single minute of extra time with good friends.
Hell yes! (surely this isnt that girly?). Also, I am not really a rebound fling guy - I have debated over this and nah

[Jackal]

what's wrong with being a pervy 27 year old guy? :O
I'm really glad I'm not a teenager anymore, I fucking hated all those years. The lows surely outweighed the highs and the lows are more memorable. I feel like I'm just growing into my skin now, aged 24. :O I definitely feel more comfortable being me and also more comfortable and not really caring what other people think. People have attacked me all my life for me being me, they have a wonderfully horrible knack at making one feel like shit about oneself. So all I do is try not to offend anymore intentionally and then no one can really complain. If they do then they're a sad fucking prude who can go fuck themselves until they die miserably. :D

BRAVO! Well said!

27 year old pervy guys sound pretty good to me!! Ha ha ha, just kidding!

[homer j. simpson]

Hell yes! (surely this isnt that girly?). Also, I am not really a rebound fling guy - I have debated over this and nah

good, rebound flings in my experience have just ended terribly.

and haha it isn't girly, i just kinda stuck that in there. but yeah, friends (i love you laura!) are what got me through a very difficult month, mostly intact.

[Static Split Screen]

I love you too!

[i]

27 year old pervy guys sound pretty good to me!!

:D

[i]

What are some GET OVER IT "remedies", anyone? Remember I work with her :/

hmm... erm. go hang out with your mates, immerse yourself in some video game you really like (if you play em). errrmmm. macca's.

[Jackal]

I have a terrible attitude about every person in my life. Except my son. I don't know how this happened. I think it's me. I get bogged down with the bullshit and forget to see the good side of anything. I think too much and don't do anything.

I try to just start over and begin life with a new attitude and then all the fucking walls pop up and I feel like I'm in the trash compactor in Star Wars and the fun is getting squeezed out of me.

I know what will cure it too. New experiences. So, there it is.

[Leela]

Right-o. I can't wait until I go to Spain, that's a completely new and different experience. It's going to be awesome...I hope.

[cigar store indian]

i'm going to live in spain one day. when i get my inheritance from my famous spanish singer relative that doesn't know about me yet!

my breasts hurt so bad.

[wasp in a jar]

my uterus is seeking vicious revenge on me again and i'm all dosed up on ibuprofen and paracetamol at the same time because i've grown immune to both on their own and this is possibly unwise and really bad for me but it takes away the pain.

yeouch.

[cigar store indian]

i had my bra on until my breasts felt like they were being binded with twine. ugh i hate being a woman whose body is craving the seed of a male. :cry:

[Static Split Screen]

i hate the word 'seed' used in that context, but I agree with your point. Seems impossible it's only been a little over 2 weeks since I had some. :(

[Static Split Screen]

And in other news my skin is all broken out and it makes me want to cry every time I look in the mirror :(

[Herr Lipp]

my uterus is seeking vicious revenge on me again and i'm all dosed up on ibuprofen and paracetamol at the same time because i've grown immune to both on their own and this is possibly unwise and really bad for me but it takes away the pain.

yeouch.

get Co-Codamol. You can get it from Boots, its the shit.

[ramblingrose]

my uterus is seeking vicious revenge on me again and i'm all dosed up on ibuprofen and paracetamol at the same time because i've grown immune to both on their own and this is possibly unwise and really bad for me but it takes away the pain.

yeouch.

Eh, Grania, same here. Last night I was truly agonised.

[Jackal]

I feel like crap because I posted too much. Whaaa. Not really, but I do hate when I need attention and take it out on you all. SORRY. I'd do something else if I could. BUT I'M TRAPPED!


I like beer and pizza. And Zelda.

[Static Split Screen]

I feel like crap whenever my stupid skin breaks out. I haven't had perfectly clear skin in 5 years. GIMME A BREAK, SKIN

</rant>

[milpool]

i visit home like 5 times a year and see my dad about 5 minutes a year and one of the first things he says to me today was "you look like you're puttin on a bit of weight! thats not like you". nice to see you too, dad.

[gangsta puffin]

oh my god, i probably would have stabbed him.

i've gained like 5lbs, i need to get ahold of that shit before it gets out of control D:

[gangsta puffin]

yeah adding to that, i pretty much want to cry because i'm trying to wear my favourite skirt and it's really getting too tight. i'm almost muffin topping. fucking hell.

i've come here, and i feel like crap ":D"

[Static Split Screen]

that was the first thing my boss said when i got back in summer. :(

my mom tactfully said "you look great"

[Jackal]

Um, tight/even fitting pants cause muffin top, too loose pants don't. The one pair that I don't have to constantly pull up makes a muffin top. Fuck it all to hell!

I live in fear of my dad calling me fat. I used to spend 40 minutes trying to get dressed when I was going to see him.

[wasp in a jar]

what exactly is "muffin top"?

pictoral evidence required please!

[cigar store indian]

:o
It's when the fat starts to roll over jeans that are too tight. http://nuevayores.blogs.com/photos/uncategorized/muffintops.jpg

[gangsta puffin]

haha excellent presentation of evidence, deb :D

[cigar store indian]

I like to think thats Britney Spears. :D

[gangsta puffin]

oh my god, i almost added that to my post when i wrote it- "btw, britney?"

[wasp in a jar]

i seeeeeee! it all makes horrible sense now and i am going to start wearing baggy drawstring trousers and smocktops forevermore so i never fall foul of muffin top.

can i have a chocolate muffin though? i'm hungry.

[lisa]

i love how most tops are extra long now because they cover any muffin top action that might happen pretty well :yes:

[gangsta puffin]

you can totally muffin top with a long top on! that's kind of the worst kind, so beware!

[Static Split Screen]

I muffin top sometimes because I have bigger hips compared to the rest of me so jeans that fit on the legs are tight around the hips. I think pretty much everyone can muffin top; nearly all women have some padding about the hips.

[Jackal]

My hips are great, it's my stomach flab that ruins everything.:( I also blame being short.

[lisa]

you can totally muffin top with a long top on! that's kind of the worst kind, so beware!
oh of course if its like super muffin topping doesnt matter what you do its gonna be on display, but when i have a tiny pooch happening im not gonna put on a normal length top where it might be noticable, its really not when its covered. seeing the flab is a lot more disgusting than not seeing it.

[Leela]

I'm getting these random bouts of nausea, where for 20 minutes all I can feel is "I need to puke, I need to puke, I need to puke..." and it sucks because I have to stop whatever I'm doing and just sit and wait for it to pass.

[gangsta puffin]

My hips are great, it's my stomach flab that ruins everything.:( I also blame being short.

word, i'm the same. though i don't really consider my hips "great," i'd rather them be bigger. it's not so much that my waist is that big, it's that my hips are so narrow, making me waist-less.

[i]

http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/health/6247625.stm

http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/health/3682657.stm

Interesting reading I thought.

(Don't shoot the messenger!)

[Jackal]

Oh, I thought men liked a skinny waist because flab is gross looking.;)

[Static Split Screen]

It makes sense. I've heard that the preferred hip to waist ratio is .7

[Nak Nak]

Waists are my favourite

[kendra]

I saw a show on this once - one of those "the science of sex" things. They showed men in Amazonian tribes a black-on-white shape of a female figure. One of the figures was hourglass, one was very thin, one had a less defined waist. These dudes don't watch Britney Spears cavort and haven't seen Paris Hilton's vagina 27 times, and they all picked the hourglass. One man didn't even say "Oh, she's sexy" he was like "She would be the healthiest mother." Tell me THAT ain't biological.

The media just has to distort this perception and say that if you aren't hourglass you're "ugly." There's no need to get that harsh about it; it just may not be the most biologically ideal shape to have..? eh.

[homer j. simpson]

D: yay, so i have more likelihood of getting pregnant. that's EXACTLY what i wanted.

ergh though i have new flab on my tummy/hips, i am promptly going back to the salad/yogurt/soup diet to get rid of it, as well as doing many many situps/pilates. swimsuit season begins in just a couple months :[

[ramblingrose]

My hips are always about 10" bigger than my waist, doesn't matter how fat/thin I am, that's just the way it is. My ratio is not ideal :(

[Static Split Screen]

hips are 12 inches bigger than my waist. Which is good, because my family gives birth to breach babies all too often :cry:

[ramblingrose]

my ex's sister looked childbearing enough to me, but they dragged all of her chillun out with forceps. You never know! You are slender of build.

[Daysleeper]

Ciona, please change your avatar, it's rather unsettling.

[Needs Wasabi]

I don't want babies. So, maybe I should be happy I'm not a size 2. WOOT!

:D :D :D

:dance:

[Kelly Kapowski]

i feel 4% crappy b/c i ate the fattest cheeseburger late last night by accident and now i have indegstion. I like cheeseburgers and all, but i was too drunk to even enjoy it or taste it!

i have birthing hips so it's all good.

[ramblingrose]

Ciona, please change your avatar, it's rather unsettling.


I will not give in to your homophobia, Paul.

[Daysleeper]

It's not gayphobia, he just looks odd and I keep thinking it is him posting and not you :(

[Intern Kate]

i watched Hollyoaks for the first time today! albeit distractedly. it made me miss Noggin: Degrassi, South of Nowhere etc.

[gangsta puffin]

my hips are seriously barely bigger than my waist. it's pathetic.

[Jackal]

34 waist
38 hips. I hear ya!

[Static Split Screen]

I'm small boned so I'm worried about babiez, but I'm tall and my hips are pretty big. My waist is 24 and my hips 36.

[cigar store indian]

its okay. C-section is the way to go anywayz. You get fantastical drugs before, during and after and don't have to squeeze a kid out of your snatch. which is a delight for you And your man, no?

[kendra]

i have no idea what my measurements are ;o

i hope i can have my kids vag because A) ew scars B) C sections are major surgeries C) the great stories about squeezing huge things out of my vag :D

[wasp in a jar]

i'm 32-22-32. i hope i can have children via vag cos i'm with kendra about scarring and surgery. but mostly scars. my aunt's the skinniest woman alive and she managed to have kids the normal way, so there is hope for me yet.

[gangsta puffin]

22" waist?? christ, isn't that the same as dear vicki beckham? i hears something like that, that she requested 22" waist jeans at some boutique and they laughed at her etc.

[Jackal]

With all these fucking stretch marks a scar would hardly be noticeable. I'm ravaged and I don't care. I wish I was smooth and beautiful, but I'm not, never was. I love my body because I have too. I refuse to hate it because others might. FTW.

[cigar store indian]

Size doesn't matter at all I hear. My cousin's are both on the big side, esp. one in the hip area but they both had to have c-sections cause of their bones or some shit! VIVA CSECTION

[Daysleeper]

I'll definitely be squeezing the child out through my vag :(

[gangsta puffin]

i was wrong, victoria beckham's waist is a whopping 23".

http://toronto.fashion-monitor.com/news.php/Celebrity_Style/2006073014Victoria-Beckham

apparently she has to have her clothes custom made, as designers don't mass produce for smaller than a 24" waist... how do you get clothes, grania??

[Jackal]

I'll definitely be squeezing the child out through my vag :(
YOU GO GIRL!

[Static Split Screen]

j/k i measured and my waist is 23. Oh well close enough. Because I have big hips I always have to get pants a size bigger than I probably normally would. They're always baggy in the legs.

[wasp in a jar]

i was wrong, victoria beckham's waist is a whopping 23".

http://toronto.fashion-monitor.com/news.php/Celebrity_Style/2006073014Victoria-Beckham

apparently she has to have her clothes custom made, as designers don't mass produce for smaller than a 24" waist... how do you get clothes, grania?? things sit on my hips! VB is an anorexic flea so probably has a hip measurement of about 26".

[gangsta puffin]

can i just say that i got back to going to the gym and logging all my food, and i lost 2lbs and went down a belt notch this week? hooray for the body responding. i had gained about 5lbs, but i wanna lose maybe 15.

[Jackal]

Had another ultimate crappy shopping trip. Made the mistake of trying on fucking bathing suits on my "have fun day". On the only one I liked and could wear in public, the inner lining was wrinkled which made my tits look wrinkled and the outline of the too small cup insert just added to the horribleness! One size bigger didn't fit well.

I'm at the age where I have to buy an "old lady swim-suit" I guess, they are so ugly that I wished I was dead.

I was too depressed to try on sexy valentine lingerie then, or bras. And wondered the store realizing just how many cute things I could never wear again and that I have to try on nearly everything because my stupid big breasts cause trouble. Then I missed being little and perky and having the ability to like something and just buy it.

I had to pass the young/teens pretty clothes to get to the misses section and when I got there it was bleak and ugly and I almost cried because I can't ever wear any of those young, silly fun clothes anymore because I'm an old lady and it's not marketed at me. Business suits and Land's End is.

I like eating and I like my curves, but I just thought if I could starve myself I'd be little and stick-like and I could wear anything without worrying. I could shop again without my huge list of shit I can't have like spaghetti straps and short things and most button down shirts.

Shopping's a disappointment now, it will only get worse. I wished I didn't clean up my act and I would have died of an overdose before age 35. Now I'm stuck here in this pretty wonderful life without the ability to wear that Hello Kitty jacket or that cute summer dress I wanted. How am I suppose to be happy now?

All this fucking ageing shit sucks ass! The worst part is that I still need a swim suit so I'm going to have to go out there again. I wish I was huge fat so I'd be that. But I feel the urge still to look sexy at the God damn pool! I work hard to look good, I look better nude than in those ill-fitting tight pieces of shit!

[gangsta puffin]

darling, darling! i can't write the kind of response you need, as my car is running in the driveway ":D"... but you're really being too hard on yourself. you are not old for chrissakes. it's not "too late" either.

[kendra]

Allison I just wanted to say that I feel like that sometimes. Especially when I walk past a Delia's. AHH my wasted youth. Anyway, you are beautiful & you DON'T have to wear frumpy clothes. I do agree that it is hard to find something in between Daisy Dukes and muumuus, though.

[lisa]

my ex's sister looked childbearing enough to me, but they dragged all of her chillun out with forceps. You never know! You are slender of build.
dragged em out with what? and what are breach babies??

my hips are 8 inches bigger than waist, always felt like i needed a smaller waist... what does this .7 ratio translate to in inches anyhow?? :therock: my math is baad.

[lisa]

I had to pass the young/teens pretty clothes to get to the misses section and when I got there it was bleak and ugly and I almost cried because I can't ever wear any of those young, silly fun clothes anymore because I'm an old lady and it's not marketed at me. Business suits and Land's End is.

I like eating and I like my curves, but I just thought if I could starve myself I'd be little and stick-like and I could wear anything without worrying. I could shop again without my huge list of shit I can't have like spaghetti straps and short things and most button down shirts.

Shopping's a disappointment now, it will only get worse. I wished I didn't clean up my act and I would have died of an overdose before age 35. Now I'm stuck here in this pretty wonderful life without the ability to wear that Hello Kitty jacket or that cute summer dress I wanted. How am I suppose to be happy now?
no way man, 40 is the new 30 or something, look at all the hot celebs in their 40-50s, theyre hot because they know HOW to dress. its not about oh i cant wear this and i must wear this, its about dressing age appropriate and looking great for where you are now. omg what not to wear has absorbed my brain. but seriously, stay away from walmart type places and theres a lot more out there than slutty little girl and muumuus... devil wears prada meryl streepish, thats what im going for when im older.
remember whatever prada makes, a very cheap but similar piece will come out shortly after :yes:

[Jackal]

Thanks everyone, I was having a bad day, couldn't get a grip on the emotions.

The 40ish hot celebs have work done. They are airbrushed, they have inches erased with a magic wand before they print the cover of a magazine. They don't look that good without lies and corrective surgery. They starve and abuse themselves to look good. I don't compare myself with them that's not a fair fight.

I compare myself with regular women. I know I look good. It's just hard to look at your body and see it kind of dying. Someone compared it too being put on a boat that you didn't want to get on, and then being pushed out into the sea on a non-stop journey. It becomes apparent that the grey hairs, wrinkles, veins, sagging, aren't just physical flaws but are the signs that time is running out. I never thought of it that way before. One minute life seems like it will last forever, and then a giant gong rings and you start realizing that one day this will be over. Mid-life crisis. It makes me question everything in my life. Am I happy? What should I be doing? Was your life good, did you waste it?

You think of all the things you didn't let yourself achieve. Or wear, or act on. But you know at the time you did it your way, so it must be right, right? My girlfriends are the same. We worry and make jokes, and know that all that doesn't matter now. We just miss some of that stuff we can't have anymore.

I guess my clothes are fine. I think I think too much about stuff.

[ramblingrose]

Oh Allison, you don't think too much, it's just that most people don't seem to think enough. I'm reading the Feminine Mystique at the moment, which is kind of depressing.

[Jackal]

I feel like gutting myself today!

[Daysleeper]

Oh, Allison....hugz4u :grouphug:

:cody:

[Static Split Screen]

Aww Allison, I hope you feel better. I saw one pic of you and you're hot, especially for your age. It's all about rocking it. Yeah you might look a bit silly in a pink leopard print haltertop (who doesn't?), but that doesn't mean you have to only wear moomoos! There's a happy medium I think.

I find looking at bathingsuits depressing too. This year I'm going with craig though so he'll make me feel pretty.

[gangsta puffin]

i want a pink leopard print halter top

[Jackal]

Aww Allison, I hope you feel better. I saw one pic of you and you're hot, especially for your age. It's all about rocking it. Yeah you might look a bit silly in a pink leopard print haltertop (who doesn't?), but that doesn't mean you have to only wear moomoos! There's a happy medium I think.

I find looking at bathingsuits depressing too. This year I'm going with craig though so he'll make me feel pretty.


I feel better because of this post! Thanks Laura!!!

I love your comment about Craig too, I went "aaww". :)

[cigar store indian]

i want to slit my wrists at the thought of buying a bathing suit. I wish i could wear a wet suit. :darn: I can't wait to be tan though.

[Jackal]

I usually swim with shorts, and a t-shirt on over my suit. For sun protection and to hide. I'm not ashamed of my body, and I don't mind some people checking me out, but the men that give off the serial killer/dehumanized avid porn watcher vibe makes me want to puke. Also I watch to see if men are actually checking out my son. The pool/waterparks are just sick places, it's not fun. The older men that are alone and sit around the kiddie pools just makes me want to kill them. Maybe they are checking out the moms, maybe the kids, who knows why they sit there for hours, but either way it's gross.

[Leela]

I wanna see a picture of Allison! I'll be she's hot!

Why do I always fall so hard for guys? Jesus, I can't get over this guy and it's obvious he doesn't want me. WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME

[ramblingrose]

Is this the one from before or another one? There's nothing wrong with you Madgrigal! You just haven't met anyone of sufficient brilliance to cope with your all-round fabulousness yet, that's my excuse anyway...if he doesn't want you, his loss.

[Leela]

From before (see? i think I have a problem) Yeah I KNOW it's his loss but I'm just so sick of being hung-up one someone who won't appreciate me BASTARD

[Daysleeper]

When did Alison post a picture? :(

[Jackal]

Page 22 of the picture thread. I found it the other day to see what people think I look like. Today it's just an X though, so ? I cut my hair yesterday, shoulder length.

[Daysleeper]

It was the day after my birthday :D But when I was in the states and not much internet access and now it's gone :(

[Needs Wasabi]

I hate having to get dressed. It makes me feel so huge.

I wanted to wear a green long sleeve shirt today..I put it on and it made me look like I was 200 pounds. I hate stretchy shirts.

I just dumped that and put on a long black tank top with a short sleeve olive green shirt on top of that. :(

Always the same ol' same ol' for me. I have tons of clothes. But, only certain things look great on me.

[Jackal]

I feel that way sometimes. I just say FTW and dress comfortably for that day as a present to myself.